HOME SWEET HOME!
Well so far it's been an amazing summer!
my time with my family is decreasing as we spread out across the globe, so I am so thankful for this time with them!! a few arguments :) but mostly lots of laughs and fun memories. lots of pictures too but it is too late for me to try to put them up here.
over the past several months i've struggled with what i see in the american church. i knew that God had not given up on us, but as i saw the vast differences between the heart of the early Church and where our focus lies now, I had a hard time not becoming discouraged and confused. On top of that, the people that the Lord has broken my heart for and who I see over and over in Scripture as being highly valued are the ones being neglected as churches build their huge buildings and focus on programs.
as i have tried to come to terms with all of this, i have met people who are longing to be the Church. People who may never plant physical roots in another country, but desire to see the Gospel preached to the ends of the earth as badly as i do. a couple rearranging their finances so they can give more for the sake of the gospel. a lady faithfully praying for a nation that burdens her heart as she watches a friend prepare to head to that land knowing she may never go. a pastor unwilling to continue doing the church program unless there is something else. a church giving up a huge building project so they can feed the hungry. through this God has begun to expand my vision of who the church is. the church is those who are going, giving up every comfort and security so others can know him. the church is the child who gives his lunch to a friend who forgot his. the church is us as we begin to step out into who God has called us to be. we can be excited to be apart of something that great!
i am becoming so excited about the future! not just for the school in canada, but for the rest of my life. the dream of going to india has always seemed so far away, but the past couple of months i have began to sense that it is getting close. i don't know what that means as far as number of months or years since God's timing is so different than ours, but i know He is preparing me for something greater! i can't wait for the day when i can pick up a little child making her mat on the street and tell her she does not have to sleep there tonight and risk being bullied or worse. but she can come home to a house with a bath, supper, and a place to sleep, and a Daddy who loves her more than she has ever know. Soon...!
we must be desperate people! so little happens when we do it on our own. i want to be a girl who ushers in the presence of God. that when i cry out, heaven pauses to listen and angels spring into action. that when my head bows, His glory comes.
Daddy, i need to know that You would come just for me
i've seen you in the sanctuary.
i felt your presence so strongly in meetings i could not walk
i've seen you heal through the hands of man
i've heard great prophesies and visions that have confirmed so much in the hearts of your people
there have been times when i've known you are in the room with me
times when fresh wind blows out of parts of scripture i've read many times
answers to prayer, miraculous provision, divine connections.
i've seen so much
but i am still so desperate.
i need to know you will come with me
alone in india trying to pull a nation from the gates of hell, will you send you manifest presence?
in my prayer room as i pour out my soul, will you be there?
in walmart, praying for the crippled man, will you release healing through these hands?
i need to be one with you!
choose me to be apart of what You are doing.
i think this was a little long and maybe a little randomly put together. but it's late and i haven't posted in awhile so that's what it is. hopefully i'll have something insightful to say before i leave the country, but if not i'll post from canada eh??
Mucho amor amigos!!
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Have a blessed week!
-Bethany